just start- motivational quotes for the lazy

I always wonder why this motivational quote somehow doesn't pierce through me.

         "Just Start'

Yes I have ambition and goals that I wanted to achieve, but hearing "just start", start somewhere or start with nothing, start with any equipment that you have as of the moment,.

I mean its logical that in able for you to achieve your goals and dreams you have to start with something but there is always a heavy feeling that drag my mind and body not to start.

Yes, you know the world, its called lazy.

But looking back, now I realize that I have inflammation problem because of wrong food choices, especially my discovery about my dairy allergy, I feel like its not I do not want to start or I am merely lazy.

With my condition before, I think its more of a symptom. Me being lazy is a symptom due to inflammation in my body.

Its just impossible to be able to Start.

No matter how I listen to motivational quotes to start and make the first step.

So in conclusion, it's really important to listen to your body.

I thought that me waking up 3am in the morning is normal due to my UTI.

Subtle headache upon waking up, to tell you a story I actually I have a high pain tolerance, I didn't know that I was already having a major headache. I simply ignore what I feel.

Other symptoms I feel is not being able to sleep as I wanted, sensitivity to noise, inability to block out noise ( if you are a perfectly healthy person it will be easy for you to ignore noise and focus on something), depression, cycle of neverending thoughts- like no matter how much I tried to put an end on to a memory, it just keeps repeating in my head.

I actually now realised that my symptoms before are severe. I knew that my body is inflamed inside hence cannot able to function well. Adding fuel to the fire, I cannot heal, due to low quality of sleep.

I can go on, and share to you the symptoms I feel for years, I think that went on for 7 years. Its not all bad days, but most of it are like an unpleasant days of waking up tired, weak, poor memory, poor concentration, hungry and many more.

I also like to point out that I look perfectly normal. Other than visceral fat and pimples, I look like a normal functioning person.

But in reality, I stutter when I speak, I easily forgets, I got brain fog, I easily loose my temper.

With this kind of invisible disease, its easy to lose your work because there is no way you are going to perform wella and its easy to lose relationship due to temper issues.

Anyway, with all that being said, can you able to start?

Start with your goals and dreams?

When there is an invisible disease that is eating your life out.

Thank goodness I am now more aware.

I may not be fully healed yet at least I can able to heal slowly. Make a better decisions when it comes to food and hopefully be better completely ♥️.

That is it for now.

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