I Want to be a Manager

After reading the book 'The Legacy Journey', I began to be sensitive about selfish goals for myself.

The Legacy Journey book opened up my mind to what it is to be a good steward of God, I want to be a manager of God.

That the money you earned is not YOUR MONEY, it's God's money and your talent is God's resources.

Parable of the Talents Mathew 25: 14-30

But, now I am a bit confused.

Now I am really pumped up to not be lazy.

I try to put up posts as many as I can because blogging I believe is one of the talents that I should utilize because God gave me this passion. I think it is not right to put to waste what God has gifted me.

I am also determined to cure my white tongue so I can work on my tip-top shape. To sharpen my immunity and my mental focus, so if ever I get a job, I can able to offer the best service I can offer.

However, having this big picture in mind, that I should be a good manager of God's resources and putting out efforts to start having a job and be productive, I still feel that there is nothing productive happening in my life.

The feeling is like when God as my boss will visit me, I don't have any achievements nor accomplishments I can tell Him, that I have been faithful to manage what He has given me.

Few weeks have past and I still don't have a proper job and this blog has very slow progress.  

With regards to taking care of your own household, I still don't know how can I able to do it while I am still jobless.

1 Timothy 5:8 NKJV But if anyone does not provide for his own, and especially for those of his household, has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.

I am thinking about the analogy Dave Ramsey narrates inside his book The Legacy Journey. 

It's like laying out the work; like a farmer prepares the soil and plant in the seeds, but it's up to God to send out the rain. Maybe this story happened in a desert where there is no way a farmer can get water to irrigate the seeds.

Leaving everything to God. 

It just doesn't feel like that I just wait for things to transpire. 

Yes, I've done a bit of sending resumes online and heard nothing.

I write for the blog a much as I could and prioritize my health to be mentally and physically fit but quit dreaming the blog would magically grow an audience in a snap.

I am still clueless about what to do and how do I leave everything to God?

How was it with the farmer in the desert?

One thing that came up to my mind is this prayer.

I am sorry Lord I am not a faithful manager of your gifts.

Please give me direction on what to do.

That is it for now.

Thanks for reading all the way!